well , the mistake's mine.

" the ability to not say a single word , not be there and care at all , not want to knw what is going on. but yet , still making me want to lean on you and making it seem like for u to be there , everything can be cleared. and aft everything , i still don't figure why. "

These sweat-saoked sheets
They cling to me
To the backs of my knees
I'm wonderin' why
I didnt try to leave
The words you spoke
They made me choke
On the air that I breathe
I'm out of luck, and now I'm stuck here
But you're my mistake
And it's far too late to turn back now
So pull me out
I've fallen down again
You're my mistake
And it's far too late to turn back now
So pull me out
I've fallen down again
I've fallen down again
The void within
Plugged up with sin
Is making me sick
I realized that I despize me
The world shut down
I pushed it out
When i should have run
You stole my youth
But you're not the truth at all
I swear to christ my life
Just give me strength so I can fight this
I've fallen down again

there's tt tinge of acceptance. of wanting to hear and follow what they say about not bearing grudges. but , i've tried. and failed. there's just still too much left in me.

the fascination of realizing that u've grwn from a p1 kid to where we are now.
i need a pack of tasty jacks!

okay. i need to go get ready for prac at H.P.