sometimes ur high and flying.everything seems to be on the right track.on YOUR track.
and
sometimes, everythings' just so dull and a single bit of wrongness can lead to a whole day of being pissed off.

im totally feeling wrong.
the shit feeling i have.
i don't want to be a hypocrite.
i want to make sure the things i say matches what im feeling inside.


im gettin superly disgusted.
u don't knw how many ppl are talking about u girl.
u've gone toooo far.
u've pissed practically the world off.
i was kind enough to talk to u about it a few months back.
u probably took it as another conversation. -(one tt goes in one ear.and out the other.)

fuck. im just so amazed at what things ppl can do.
how they can take for granted what they have so much and not feel a thing.
and how they can just f-ing act asif everything's all pretty damn good.

one day, i'll shout. i'll really shout. and don't blame me.
u've gone an f-ing too far.



- to the other friend.
u can choose to restore it.
i can choose to shut about how i feel.
but its gonna go back to how i always got pissed at the things u do.if u remember.
because of -- .

i don't knw why its affecting me so much.
maybe i just cherish u too much.to see u get hurt again.

don;t forget!ur gay.so feelings are not developed.