i have to be frank. i love school. i love my pals like hell A LOT i tell you. but .. the lessons just spoil the whole effect of funess. yeah .. like totally. school was damn fucked up today .. to tell you the truth , i think going for lessons now.. is merely just for the sake of going.. cause afterall ... it doesn't make a diff when everyone's not focused with their work in lessons.. i can't say i am either. i just think i study better outside school.

and. im not gonna poke my nose into the situations of the immatures.. and start fighting for my rights. cause i knw.. its useless.even people who have smthing against them don't bother to stand up and just tell them to shut up. so even if they enjoy the pleasure of fucking up people's life by spreading false accusations , i won't bother. cause they're just plainly immatures. i won't waste my time on them.i shall just allow them to morph into what they use to be like when they were 3 . some may be wrenching their face , totally disagreeing with me. but trust me... , its outrageously obvious tt i have no wrong in stating what i just typed.

i think i needa layoff school for awhile. i wished man. like hell yeah.

i think i should stop acting as if im perfectly fine and alright. but then again , putting a strong front smtimes helps .. it shows tt he's there and he'll make things better soon. (:

i just wished i had more people like kel , bren , gabs , libing and euo around. then it'd be better. i won't have to face a text making me feel so hurt and making me think twice about everything and how im feeling. i wished....


maybe its just deceit tt im looking at...

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i rmber sept 11 . when the news broke out bout the wtc. how i wished u died in there. blinding you doesn't seem enough. i don't choose who god allows and not allows to live. i just think tt its unfair for u to do so much crap yet only be robbed of ur eyes. still , ur diminished life wouldn't have had filled up the hurt and gaps in the family...

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