people have phases. i do too.
i'll be able to push myself so hard at one point , such tt killing myself doesn't seem to matter anymore.
and.. at another point. i'll just not do anything. and ignore that fact tt if i don't do anything , i'd actually kill myself even more.
its just the phase!
but its just imptant to knw tt kicking myself back into the "do smthing. so even if u die, u knw u've done ur best" phase is more impt then anything else rite now.
i think i've got it back. bt i can't be too sure can i ?
and. ive implemented smthing new in life. (: i hope i stick to it.
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on another note.
i hope this note gets to u.
as much as it may seem like i hate u , deep dwn. part of me is just filled with regret.the regret tt we nv continued as what we were. and the regret tt u turned out to lie to me tt once. i really nv had anything against u. neither do i have any now. its just tt even when we don't communicate , i still expect u to be respecting me and not going ahead with dumb assumptions. BECAUSE , we were once friends! i guess it nv occurred to u how much the friend-relationships when we were younger mattered to me. still. whether u feel the same way as i do. i just felt tt u need to knw this. i don't act the way i do because of what other ppl say or feel. i feel this way toward u cause u've done smthing to disappoint me. yeah...bt if there's any chance of u un-doing it. i'd let u have it. provided i knw u for who u are.
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SO. its the annual sports carnival this thurs. and... BANDY AGAIN. i hate to say this.but yr in yr out.. the grp of us ,we go in the court.when we enter we play. when we're out we rest. and aft tt ... the chapter's closed. we don't interact u see. this time, being the last time , and yr , .. i promise... i'd cast all my assumptions dwn and just go ahead with the game. and feel it all out with u guys. (:
SEE YAll'!
i'll be able to push myself so hard at one point , such tt killing myself doesn't seem to matter anymore.
and.. at another point. i'll just not do anything. and ignore that fact tt if i don't do anything , i'd actually kill myself even more.
its just the phase!
but its just imptant to knw tt kicking myself back into the "do smthing. so even if u die, u knw u've done ur best" phase is more impt then anything else rite now.
i think i've got it back. bt i can't be too sure can i ?
and. ive implemented smthing new in life. (: i hope i stick to it.
----
on another note.
i hope this note gets to u.
as much as it may seem like i hate u , deep dwn. part of me is just filled with regret.the regret tt we nv continued as what we were. and the regret tt u turned out to lie to me tt once. i really nv had anything against u. neither do i have any now. its just tt even when we don't communicate , i still expect u to be respecting me and not going ahead with dumb assumptions. BECAUSE , we were once friends! i guess it nv occurred to u how much the friend-relationships when we were younger mattered to me. still. whether u feel the same way as i do. i just felt tt u need to knw this. i don't act the way i do because of what other ppl say or feel. i feel this way toward u cause u've done smthing to disappoint me. yeah...bt if there's any chance of u un-doing it. i'd let u have it. provided i knw u for who u are.
----
SO. its the annual sports carnival this thurs. and... BANDY AGAIN. i hate to say this.but yr in yr out.. the grp of us ,we go in the court.when we enter we play. when we're out we rest. and aft tt ... the chapter's closed. we don't interact u see. this time, being the last time , and yr , .. i promise... i'd cast all my assumptions dwn and just go ahead with the game. and feel it all out with u guys. (:
SEE YAll'!
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