sometimes , when you see the things happening around and to the people around you. you stop and think if the world is really what you see it to be and if it really is as nice as you think. you look at some .. and they seem so perfect on the outside .. yet when they open up themselves , u start to feel that maybe they aren't the sort you wanna hang out with. yet , there are some that have already opened up to us and triggered us to want to accept them as part of our lives and hold them dearly to our hearts. u see , accepting is one thing .. but allowing the acceptance to grow is another. and after growing , keeping it steady and not letting it fall of and hit rock bottom is another. its like how a friend is there no matter what to reassure us that no matter what .. , we'll have them. it suck big time to knw that there are people that betray each other for personal gain. the torment of betrayal doesn't hit them till they feel it for themselves. on another note , if a good friend makes it straight up to u and tells u what he or she feels , knwing that it'll hurt you therefore hoping she'll save u from that hurt , it means she cares. but if u challenge that fact that what she feels is right is not .. then screw yourself. and wait till u get a taste of what she predicted .. you'll feel the guilt , the torment and the belief to have trusted her. - heh. trust me.i've been there.
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chinese o's. on monday! omg. frankly , im trusting god on this one. i knw , they say we ain't gonna do well if we don't work. .. i've tried. really. REALLY! zoomgg! i have okay. the week of pure chinese studies was damn enlightening. haha. atleast i realized that i could pass chinese. which i did la.. last paper for the week. i have caught shrek3! - go figure! (: hah. yeahh.

im still trusting god in all.. (: love , life , sch , everything.

I tried to fight the feeling, the feeling took me down,
I struggle and I lost the day you knocked me out,
Now everything’s got meaning and meanings bring me down,
I’m watching as the screening of my life plays out.

Every day I fight these feelings,
For your sake I will hide the real thing,
You can run all your life; for mine, I will chase...

You should never fight your feelings,
When your very bones believe them,
You should never fight your feelings,
But you have to follow nature’s law.

I’ll live with never knowing, if knowing’s gonna change,
I’ll stop the feeling growing, I will stay away,
Like a broken record stuck before a song,
A million beginnings, none of them the one.

Every day I fight these feelings,
For your sake I will hide the real thing,
You can run all your life; for mine, I will chase...

You should never fight your feelings,
When your very bones believe them,
You should never fight your feelings,
But you have to follow nature’s law.

I wrote her letters and tried to send them,
In a bottle I placed my hope,
And it’s the last will of good intentions,
Seek your will, you’ll give it to me,
Don’t make me wait,
You build me up, now take down,
But I will stand my ground,
And I’m inspired when I’m found.

You should never fight your feelings,
When your very bones believe them,
If you let them show you’ll keep them,
I know you’re hurt but soon you’ll rise again,
again, again, again, again, again, again, again..

You should never fight your feelings,
When your very bones believe them,
You should never fight your feelings,
I have to follow nature’s law. 

it touches you.

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on another note.

people live,people learn,people grow,people leave.

night world.