nv fight a feeling. nv fight for what u want but knw u can't have. there ain't a point. it pratically applies to everything in life. i mean , if u;ve tried and knw tt no matter how the fuck you try to make things work or good by fighting the errored feelings toward it , it'll nv work or its pointless .. then why bother!? seriously.

I tried to fight the feeling, the feeling took me down,
I struggle and I lost the day you knocked me out,
Now everything’s got meaning and meanings bring me down,
I’m watching as the screening of my life plays out.

Every day I fight these feelings,
For your sake I will hide the real thing,
You can run all your life; for mine, I will chase...

You should never fight your feelings,
When your very bones believe them,
You should never fight your feelings,
But you have to follow nature’s law.

I’ll live with never knowing, if knowing’s gonna change,
I’ll stop the feeling growing, I will stay away,
Like a broken record stuck before a song,
A million beginnings, none of them the one.

Every day I fight these feelings,
For your sake I will hide the real thing,
You can run all your life; for mine, I will chase...

You should never fight your feelings,
When your very bones believe them,
You should never fight your feelings,
But you have to follow nature’s law.

I wrote her letters and tried to send them,
In a bottle I placed my hope,
And it’s the last will of good intentions,
Seek your will, you’ll give it to me,
Don’t make me wait,
You build me up, now take down,
But I will stand my ground,
And I’m inspired when I’m found.

You should never fight your feelings,
When your very bones believe them,
If you let them show you’ll keep them,
I know you’re hurt but soon you’ll rise again,
again, again, again, again, again, again, again..

You should never fight your feelings,
When your very bones believe them,
You should never fight your feelings,
I have to follow nature’s law. 

to say that im not affected by circumstances right now is a lie. but i can say that im taking your shit in and processing it. its partially processed right now.i finally see everything clearer. the gleam to another chapter.

oooooohh man. why the fuck do i bother to do these. you don't care shit.

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i breath,eat,feel,touch,hear,smell,shit,taste,dream and the list goes on .. with the damn workshop! 9 hours everyday! gosh.

1 day down. MANY MORE TO GO.

thank u marj for being there. (:

oh! and i did retail ystday! was at marina square. we started at NOVO.and hahahahahaha... bought 3 pair of shoes in a day! and a pair of shorts. dinner in the evening was with family near bugis .. the steamboat. hah.

okay. i feel shit tired. and brain's damn dead.

so many songs i love to ruminate with now...

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do 

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i knw that i don't mean anything. i knw that the highest we can ever reach is these. and i totally feel the same. but that doesn't show and mean that i don't treat u preciously. it sucks to not be EVER reciprocated. damn. its over.

maybe god's telling me not to ever expect too much frm anyone. cause smtimes , some people just lack the basic necessities to even make up for everything.